Step Into My Shoes

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This photograph is worth 1000 times more than a picture of a...

Mon, 09 Jan 2012 04:34:41 -0500

This photograph is worth 1000 times more than a picture of a bottle of nail varnish or food etc. Only about 10 of my followers will reblog this, and the rest will not. It won’t spoil your blog. God bless him.

be strong little man

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Let me tell you about this girl… She is the love of my life, the...

Sat, 10 Dec 2011 08:09:34 -0500

Let me tell you about this girl… She is the love of my life, the mother of my beautiful daughter, and the most amazingly beautiful girl I have ever seen bar none. I met this lovely lady when i was just a troubled teenager at the age of 15 yrs. old, and I knew once i saw her, that I wanted to be with her. It wasn’t just her appearance that caught my eye, but her amazing personality that she had when we started a conversation. I liked her so much, that I couldn’t stop thinking about her, no matter how much i tried. This may sound like such a good story so far, but the worse part is about to come up, she had a boyfriend already. Once I heard this, i was shattered, confused and very emotional. I knew she would be worth fighting for, but I had no idea as to how I would approach the situation. I started hanging out with her, which only made it harder for me knowing that we couldn’t be together because of her boyfriend… but once I found out that her boyfriend had moved up state, I knew this was my chance to make her mine, and if i hesitated any longer, I would lose her forever. Being the shy little boy I was (also not very handsome) I knew I had to break the ice casually. Luckily for me she invited me over to watch movies, I could not describe how happy I was at this moment. I dropped everything I was doing just to go see her. As we were watching the movies she had gone upstairs to change into different clothes, and came back and sat next to me (I know this sounds ridiculous, but my heart was beating so fast) I felt like I was going to have a panic attack. But sadly the night came to an end much sooner than I had hoped. The next day when she invited me over, I knew that if i didn’t take a risk… she would lose her interest. Realizing this, I knew i had to go for it no matter how scared I was. As i left that night and she walked me out I swallowed my fear and went for it (man was that kiss electrifying) and at that moment I knew it was well worth the risk. After that had happened, we finally started dating, after a good 3 months of knowing each other and trying to move out of the “friend zone” we officially were boyfriend/girlfriend… my enthusiasm was abnormally high. We went on dating for nearly 3 years, when it sadly ended, but not because we didn’t love each other anymore, but simply because of our circumstances, she had left san diego and moved to texas because of her parents. I was so devastated I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t smile, or laugh without faking it… and I blew so many people off. I wasn’t myself, I was so deeply affected by this I realized that it had to be for a certain reason. I was so madly inlove with this woman, that it brought me to tears to even think that I was incapable of holding her anymore. Then a long 9 months later, I had the opportunity to leave and be with her once more… I was so happy when I reached my destination and made it back into her arms. 3 months later we both had left to korea to be with her parents once again, and 2 short months after I returned to san diego to try and improve my shitty life. Sadly the distance between us proved once again to be too much strain on our relationship, and once again it sadly ended. 2 girlfriends and 1 year later I’m still madly inlove with this girl. Realizing that she had taken me from a troubled teenager, and turned me into a smart, responsible young man. I’m so grateful to have her in my life, and will never fully understand how I was so lucky to find this amazing love when I wasn’t searching for anything. I love you Maria Arceli Vitto Silva Miller….

forever n always est. ~*05-25-08*~

I will never be incapable of loving you as long as I live.

E·mo·tion (Noun)Noun: A natural instinctive state of mind deriving from one’s...

Mon, 05 Dec 2011 04:16:05 -0500

E·mo·tion (Noun)Noun:

A natural instinctive state of mind deriving from one’s circumstances, mood, or relationships with others

Lets get started on this… one of the most complicated things about us humans are emotions. The real question behind this is do you understand and express them? or do you hide them and act different? some people express their emotions, some don’t, and some are controlled by their emotions. The people who understand and express emotions are the people who are truly meant to be in your life, others who don’t shouldn’t. If you are upset by something or hurt, do you want to talk to someone who understands and can relate? or someone who makes fun of it and can not sympathize?

People who understand emotions and can express them will be the best people to turn to when in need. They can relate or sympathize to the best of their ability and let you know that you’re not alone. These people are like your security blanket when you wake up from a nightmare. They can be your sword and your shield when times get rough.

People who hide their emotions and act tough or heartless, etc. will not be there when you need them. They will either make fun of the situation, or not know how to comfort or sympathize with you. They will find a way out of the situation the best and quickest way possible, usually by upsetting you more, and simply blowing you off. This is not a true friend.

People who are controlled by their emotions are of no help as well. They will simply over sympathize or turn it into their situation whether it benefits you or not. They will take your situation and make it into a completely situation by simply being over emotional, or trying to get you to sympathize for them. You do not want to turn to these people when you need help simply because they will only try and benefit themselves in a situation like this. These people cry over everything and nothing at the same time. They will find the smallest, and sometimes the most irrational thing to cry about. In example, ” OMG! my cat ran away yesterday, but he came back 2 hours later… i was so worried.” or ” My mom won’t let me go out because my room is messy…” again those were just examples, but i have had people say those to me.

The most confusing people of all, are the people who understand emotions, but can not express them. These people seem perfectly fine in the worst of situations, but at the same time are dying on the inside. It’s never easy to deal with a bad situation, but everyone has their ways of doing so. In example, my grandmother from my mom’s side had a sister, who passed away when I was only a kid (can’t remember exactly how old i was.) All of my family cried, and mourned, I however was unaffected by this. I’m not saying i don’t understand my emotions, but I was simply incapable of expressing them. Instead I seemed perfectly normal, until i had turned 12. At the age of 12, i started crying over everything… falling, stubbing my toe, not being able to do something correctly my first attempt at it, etc. I started compulsively eating until I became severely overweight. I was a 4’ 9” 12 year old who weighed close to 220 lbs. The reason this all happened was because I was incapable of expressing myself, so I found other ways of doing so.

Emotions are very confusing, and can be tough to deal with. But if you ever find yourself in a situation that you believe should be affecting you differently, don’t bottle up your emotions and put them away. Instead, find a way to express them, or find someone who can sympathize with you, and help you express them. These are your TRUE friends, the one who you can always rely on when you need them.

peekabooxd: canitbesummerforever: Every child deserves a...

Mon, 05 Dec 2011 03:42:12 -0500

peekabooxd:

canitbesummerforever:

Every child deserves a chance to be young. I know that it wont hurt you to reblog this and show everyone how beautiful these children are. Reblog if you care.

i saw this on tlc :| befor they their happy children(,:

absolutely wonderful

Intellect.

Fri, 25 Nov 2011 19:25:27 -0500

in·tel·lect/ˈintlˌekt/

Noun: The faculty of reasoning and understanding objectively, esp. with regard to abstract or academic matters.

Everyone has this side of them, why most choose to ignore/hide it, is beyond me. I would much rather understand something completely/some what, rather than be scared of it and question it later on. I would just like to see people actually apply their intellect to their life. makes choices based on knowledge, not emotion.

People Complaining.

Fri, 25 Nov 2011 16:51:34 -0500

i like it when people say, “my life is so bad, its like im in a hell hold.”

i just like to stop and go, “HAHAHAHAHA, just remember…. before we get to heaven, we must first go through hell.”

defining superficial and ego constructs

Fri, 25 Nov 2011 16:46:17 -0500

i’ve posted on facebook about this a long time ago.
so i thought i would revise it a bit and see what the outcome is
a quick

[definition] superficial: shallow, lacking substance; At face value; pertaining to the surface; being near the surface

a huge problem with a lot of people in this day and age is the fact that we are very much superficial in the sense that we kind of use each other for what we perform/show/give willingly to the group/social environment. what trips me out the most is that this type of behavior is rewarded all throughout this society.

For example:
Lets say one guy gave a ride to someone because he felt compelled to do so due to the circumstances this other person has. innately the person that got the ride has been reinforced in a way to execute the same behavior he has before to get the same response from the guy that gave him the ride to repeat the same reward(giving a ride.) so in simpler terms it would be
Behavior (want for a ride) —-> Positive Reinforcer (getting the ride) —-> Behavior (constant want for ride)

now you can make this as complex as you want it by adding certain factors that’ll screw with the outcome but it does not deny the fact that it reinforces a behavior to the point that it is pretty much expected.

in a sense people take advantage of the benefits that others give to them and will milk it for what its worth, and its a sad and terrible thing to do to someone. i cant really talk because im sure i have done this very same thing and probably have tried to justify for it and i really do say this from the heart and all of my heart that its terrible to just be hanging with someone just because they have something that benefits you and you only. i thought having a friend is supposed to be a mutual thing rather than just a one sided kind of deal. i understand some people are more fortunate than others but dont just be there to take from them what they have but to offer up what you can in accordance to what he/she can. not even that, just being in company with each other is suffice and awesome as it is. whats the point in trying to take from each other without ever giving back?

In turn, superficiality is a strong deciding factor that plays into co dependency and the fact that a person hasn’t fully developed yet simply because of the fact that they can not be function as an autonomous person but have to rely on someone else and pretty much use them for what they can offer to them. This also in turn will result in a forced separation and seeing how it plays out the process is repeated again with someone else. Its just a vicious circle. The chance of it repeating is almost guaranteed unless they somehow see past the empty justification and allowing some sort of rebuilding process to begin by actually starting at square one again

From superficiality and the co dependent births something we see a lot from people and pick up on immediately and that is what we call an ego. this is in turn constructed by a said individual so this is what we call an ego construct. Everyone has heard of an alter ego in the example of Batman, Bruce Wayne’s alter ego is Batman in which he goes and fights crime in the night. But in the sense of ego we are talking about what people put in place of self esteem. Something to draw from when we are socially interacting with people on the daily. Those with ego constructs are easily detected as those that are trying to impress someone rather express themselves, justifying their every move, those of low status trying to make it seem like they are those of high status in the social structure. Rather than going through the trouble and hard work to get to the point of high status they like to pretend they are there and will proceed to fake it till when they think they make it

I think a lot of people are progressing from being real to being fake and just making an ego construct of their lives by showing “oooh ahhh look what i do” kind of thing. From their job, the clothes they wear, the people they hang out with, the girl/boy youre dating, money, power, fame, popularity, anything really can be put into that [insert ego construct here] slot which is pathetic simply due to the fact that when you take that one thing away from them that they have leaned on for so long, They realize quickly that without that they dont amount to anything and are just as normal as the dude thats right next to them or they are something they hate. This ego construct is a fake view of how you act, react, and perform in an environmental setting and it will in turn fail on you. There isn’t anything in the least bit genuine about it other than the fact that you want it but don’t want to put in the necessary work for it. And since it will fail on you you will most definitely try to justify that failure on something other than yourself. i think that is a key thing that happens to the most of us at one point before we wake up and really check our surroundings to see that we are responsible for every action we take whether they be for better or for worst, we as people should be reliant on who we are as people rather than relying on a worldly, fallable construct we try to make as a foundation.

and the worst part is. This process gets repeated and is actually rewarded in society. See a recurring theme here?

like it, reblog it, show your friends, learn from it, apply it, whichever.
questions comments do what you like

love and peace

All credit is given to my big bro/mentor James Chung.

“A man is not measured by his accomplishments in his life, but instead by the legacy he leaves...

Fri, 25 Nov 2011 16:34:40 -0500

“A man is not measured by his accomplishments in his life, but instead by the legacy he leaves behind.”

Just something i came up with off the top of my head one night.

The way woman work.

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 07:01:40 -0500

Now before i start this blog, i want to put some things out there.

#1 - not all woman do this.

#2 - I’m not a sexist, I’m very honest.

#3 - this is about 98% of women.

with that said and done, lets begin.

Women work like a set of monkey bars (your thinking “wtf how?”) but its very true. Women will find something great and cherish it, as all of us should instead of taking things for granted (alot of women do this aswell). With that being said lets elaborate shall we?

Let me paint a picture for you, you’re in a relationship and its going great. you guys have been together for a while and have built a very good foundation (as every relationship should have) and you are developing deep feelings for one another. its getting close that year mark anniversary and you have something special planned out, and you make sure everything will go as smooth as possible. little do you know that he has plans of his own… and when the day finally arrives instead of doing anything that either of you planned out, you get into a huge argument over the subject of not being able to do what you planned because the other one made plans without talking about it to you (thats what we call a surprise.) You guys have an argument, blow off your steam, say things you shouldn’t have and the moment is over. now instead of having something great to cherish your crying and upset because he just called you and told you everything was over, he cant do it anymore blah blah bah (you know the usual things said.) now you’re sitting in your room possibly crying your tearducts dry, and venting to your friends. you have just grabbed onto your first monkeybar.

Next scenario, you find someone who sparks your interest and want to see how things go. you start talking for a while, and finally realize that he is text about 3 other girls at the same time (typical wanna be “player”) and your devastated. you have just grabbed onto your second monkey bar.

Now this is where the monkeybar theory is fully explained. hang in there, i know its alot to read, but i want to make sure you fully understand this concept.

You are completely tired of being hurt, and just want to give up. your hanging onto 1 monkeybar in each hand, and dont want anything else to happen so your holding on as tight as you can. You are walking down the street with your friends one day as your hanging out, and you see this boy who pulls your attention without even trying. you look at him and smile, he smiles back, and instantly your both interested. you and him start having casual conversation when you realize that he is what you have been waiting for (not looking, believe me when i say that its the best when they find you) you start talking and texting each other often, and are talking about a relationship. now here is the probem with the 98% of women who apply to this. 98% of women who are too scared of being hurt again will try their hardest to not get involved in a relationship at the fear of getting hurt. in order for you to get to your 3rd monkeybar and move forward, you must let go of what is behind you first. you can not move forward on your monkeybars unless you let go of your past with one hand and reach forward to something new (hence the monkeybar theory)

point of the story, dont be haunted by whats behind. instead learn from your choices, and look forward to something new. the reason your rear-view mirror is smaller than your front windshield, is because you need to spend more time looking forward then behind you.

Exact words in my mind right now

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 06:42:54 -0500

Exact words in my mind right now

Let's get something straight.

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 06:39:46 -0500

#1 - I think that people who reblog about finding a relationship because they saw a cute couple picture, put this thought into your head. Not a single relationship is the same, sure they can be similiar in very few and small ways, but never similar. When you see a cute couple picture, dont say/think “can i have this?” or “i wish i had a guy like this.” etc. just remember, that no matter what, your going to have some downs in life every once in a while, do they suck? hell yeah they do. But we’re human, we’re the strongest species on this planet, this is not a fact, but i believe this to be true. You get hurt? fuck them, if they hurt you, they’re not worth your time. Your too good for a person who repeadetly hurt you, always remember to keep your chin up because someone better is always out there. Find someone who deserves you, and who will treat you like their world, because you should be when your with someone.

#2 - It irritates me when people say, “I don’t understand love/relationships, they are too complicated.” This shit is not complicated, you find someone who will never give up on you, who will love you no matter what you guys go through, will always make sure your okay before you even think about checking on them. A relationship is like a machine (very technical comparison, i know.) but if everything just doesnt come together and work how they’re supposed to, then its not going to run. You and your partner have to work together to create a unison motion, otherwise you will be working against each other which lead to problems and arguments. You can’t lose your temper when your arguing, if you ever come to it (which every couple does at one point in time) because if you do, it will show them that even they’re not special enough for you to put aside your pride to make things work out.

#3 - people who ask “why does she get all the guys?” or “why are guys not attracted to me?” or maybe even “when will i find my Mr. Right?”. This is simple… BE YOURSELF! if you see a girl who acts like a total clueless person and gets all the attention 80% of the time they are acting. Which can bring alot of attention, but also gets very annoying after a period of time. Girls who are controlling/obsessive/bitchy, they will hook a guy with looks/appearance only, then after they realize how they really act, they lose their partner. Don’t change for anyone, the only person that can change you is yourself. Whether you do it because you believe it’s for the better, or because you let someone change you. If the person who you’re talking/attracted to doesn’t accept you for who you are, forget them and move on. You should never try to change yourself to “try” and impress a guy who will probably drop you for some floosy who’s down for one night.

#4 - Fake ass bitches… NO NEED TO PUT UP AN ACT! everyone will accept it for a while, but once they find out what your doing, 1 of 2 things will happen. #1 they will call you out on it, or #2 everyone will think your a dumb ass for trying to be someone else. Take it from someone who tried to change for everyone just to make them happy (i am of course talking about myself at this point.) if you try and please everyone, you will more than likely upset/dissapoint someone special or the wrong person. No matter how much you try to make everyone happy, it’s impossible, and more than likely like I did, you will eventually lose sight of who you really are.

Not meant to be a dis to anyone, just sharing some thoughts, im sorry. i know it was long, but those who read it thank you, and please reblog to show that you read it and share the love. knowledge is power, the more you know, the more people will fear you.

Love is complicated.

Tue, 11 Oct 2011 22:48:04 -0400

It’s been a while since I blogged something, been a little busy. Take the time to read this maybe you’ll enjoy it.

Love is such a complicated subject, but always keep in mind that ever love is also different. One of the most thing to understand about it is how it works, you can just be having a bad day, then you accidentally stumble upon someone who catches your interest. The best type of love to find is the one that you don’t have to look for, but instead it comes to you.

I don’t understand why so called “adults” always tell us that we don’t know what love is because we are too young. If i may say so love doesn’t necessarily we have to get married, or be together forever. As i stated before every love is different, we may just love the connection that we have with that person, or maybe what they do/did for us, maybe you love how they look/act. Whatever the case may be, we do know love, it just may be different then what you see in your eyes. Ever heard the old expression, “you never know what goes on behind closed doors” ? well you don’t always see how those 2 individuals act when you’re not around.

Just keep this in mind the next time someone tells you that you can’t love someone because your too young to know what love is, or if people just give you a hard time.

Realization #320:

Tue, 06 Sep 2011 22:55:32 -0400

I love how people stop and stare through their Hater vision. Why is it that you must go out of your way to sit there and give me dirty looks and waste your time? Seriously you SHOULD have better things to do with your time. You should be perfectly fine with who you are as a person, if your not then do something about it before its too late to do anything. No more excuses find your motivation and stop dwelling on things.

Hello Old Friend.

Mon, 29 Aug 2011 05:29:51 -0400

It has been a long while that i have been on here, maybe its time to start blogging again.

So lately i have been in this wierd spot in my head, and i have no idea how to make heads or tails of it. People keep telling me that im acting different, or asking why i seem different. Truth i honestly don’t know why i have been acting the way that i have. Maybe ive been growing up, maybe im finally realizing things that i should’ve long ago. Ever since the whole jail experience that everyone knows/talks about, i have been doing alot of thinking. Honestly i can’t tell whether its a good or bad thing, its probably too early to tell if this will change my positivity in any way. I know for a fact that it was most definitely a learning experience and that it was a positive outcome, but yet too figure out to make it work for me.

Down at the pool...

Sat, 30 Jul 2011 19:33:48 -0400

watching Kaleb as he swims or hot tubs, whichever. lets see what kind of stuff you guys got for me today? anon or not…. bring it

Realization #317:

Thu, 28 Jul 2011 23:23:15 -0400

People who complain about how bad your life is, just remember this. There is always someone out there who has it just as hard/if not harder then you do/did. For all the people who complain about how their life was so hard, yet they had everything handed to them, grow up. You think your life is hard because your parents didn’t give you what you wanted this one time? there are people out there who would’ve been grateful just to have the things you had handed to you in their life for 1 day. Never say that it’s too much, because it even says it in the bible, ” God will not do onto you more than you can handle.” or something along those words, not sure if i quoted it exactly right. just remember this, the younger you are with more stuff to put up with then other people, just means that God knows that you are strong enough to deal with it and power through. You should never give up, because I am a very strong believer in “karma” and trust and believe, it is real. For all the terrible things that happen in your life, that you deal with and learn from it, God is planning on making it up to you somewhere down the road. So just remember this, God will never give you a burden that you can not handle.

Straight from the heart - Ryan Miller